Sunday, October 3

I love Sundays. For a while now, it has been Craig's only day off. SO, Annabelle and i soak it up! We both have such a love for him, and enjoy lots of time with him when we get it.

Today, we went on a little outing to run some errands. I always like having someone else with me when I have to run errands. It makes things a little bit easier with Punkin with me.

I went to get some blue and yellow ribbon to make some awareness ribbons for the month of October. My family will be wearing them (hopefully) every day this month. Blue and yellow are the colors for Down Syndrome Awareness. :) I also got some orange ribbon to make some Halloweeny bows AND to make some UT bows for one of our little friends, who's parents are big UT fans. :)

Yesterday was a busy day. market days was too busy for me and peanut, therefore I did not enjoy it like i thought i would. :( i feel bad about that, but its just the way it is i guess. There was a 'moment' yesterday. I was sitting on a bench slightly hidden from the mass crowd of people and shopping booths. I noticed a lady pushing what looked like a wheelchair thingy, (more like and adult stroller i guess). The sweet girl in the 'stroller' looked to be around 13-15 years old. She had down syndrome. I watched them(of course) trying not to make it obvious. The girl looked handicap and also like she had autism maybe. The woman walked over to me where I was sitting with one hand on Annabelle's stroller. She asked if she could sit next to me. Annabelle and the young girl were next to each other, looking at each other, while the woman and I were sitting to rest. I felt like it was a "God moment". I wanted to talk to the lady and ask her questions and really know what her daughter was all about. ( I am only assuming it was her daughter). I felt my throat start to close and tears well up behind my sunglasses, and I did not say anything. We sat there for plenty long enough for me to strike up a convo, but I didnt. I didnt know what to say, or how to say it. I wondered if she knew, or could tell that Annabelle also had Down Syndrome. ( I OFTEN wonder if strangers notice.) Anyways, she got up after a while and left. I felt like I let a moment pass. Maybe I did. Maybe God just allowed her to sit next to me so I could see that she still had a life. I got a little stressed out during the day, trying to maneuver the stroller through the crowd, and this woman is STILL doing that with a teenager. That thought frightens me. The "what if's". BUT, the Lord kept giving me hugs and letting me know that my future is IN HIS HANDS, and ITS GOOD. It is what is best for me and for Craig. Whatever it holds. The woman still had joy. She did not seem unhappy or stressed at all. I dont want to keep wondering what our future holds with having a child with special needs. I think the worry and anxiousness will just take away some joy. So, although i did not speak to the woman, the Lord still used the moment. Thank you, Jesus. :)

(whoa, the vulnerability in my honesty is too much! yikes.)

SOOOOO, I sold a few things at that sale. sold some bows, which now makes me know that people will actually buy my creations. yay!

Ok, im gonna go enjoy time with my little family. :) no football that either of us wanted to watch today, so we rented Date Night from Redbox. Will prob write more tomorrow! Thanks if you are reading!