Let them be little

Let them be little

7.26.2012

38 WEEKS


How far along?  38 weeks, 1 day
Total weight gain: About 25-28lbs.  The scale hit the number that I sort of hoped I wouldn't see, but expected.  Then, went over that number.  I'm not as upset as I thought I would be.  I eat ice cream every day, sometimes twice. ;)
Maternity clothes? Of course.  I really think my belly got bigger within just a few days.  So, I HAVE to wear either maternity shirts or LONG shirts.  Otherwise, the bottom of my belly hangs out, which I think is gross.
Stretch marks? I haven't seen any, and I had Craig look last night.  There are parts of my belly that I can not even see, so he examined, and said he didn't see anything. 
Sleep: I have actually been sleeping pretty good.  I get up for potty breaks a lot, but have been feeling rested.  I am SO thankful! 
Best moment this week:  This week has been totally uneventful after a very eventful weekend. 
Miss Anything? I'm not missing anything right now.  Of course, I am still uncomfortable in many ways, but the fact that I only have a few days to a couple weeks left makes me SO MUCH more patient. 
Movement:  Ouch.  Hurts so much when he moves.  But, cute, yes. 
Food cravings:  Ice Cream.  I think I could eat it for breakfast, lunch and dinner.  Then for dessert.  I'm not kidding.  I have not craved ice cream this whole pregnancy till now.  It's kinda crazy.  Most food sounds gross to me, and only makes me think I will get heartburn.  But, not my Blue Bell.  :) 
Anything making you queasy or sick: Not really.  I just don't have much of an appetite for big meals or 'real' food.
Gender:  BOY!!
Labor Signs:
I wish I could say yes.  I FOR SURE thought that this baby would be a July baby, but I am feeling a whole lot of nothing.  Even Braxton Hicks have seemed to slow down.  What tha?  Since I have not felt much, I am thinking there is a REALLY good chance we will make it to August.  That's alright.  I am surprisingly feeling patient about that.  Yes, anxious for the whole labor thing to get started, but patient.  If I make it to my due date and still have not progress, I will be eating lots of fresh pineapple, walking a ton, maybe some accupressure, and a couple other things to help labor get started.  WE will see!!! 
Symptoms: .I think my ribs are bruised on the inside. 
Belly Button in or out? outish
Wedding rings on or off? ON!
Happy or Moody most of the time:  Little bit of a mix.  Pretty peaceful actually. 
Looking forward to:  "Labor" DAY!!!  :)

7.23.2012

The weekend.

 This past weekend was so super fun.  A couple of my sweet friends threw me a little shower at an adorable coffee shop.  It meant so so much to me that they did this for me and my little boy.  They have no idea how blessed I felt.  We had a great time, and everything was super duper cowboy cute! 
Check out this perfectly cute Cowboy diaper cake. 

Me and my mommma
 My sweet sweet hostesses.
 My sisters and my momma


Later that evening, we had a little family reunion with some of my mom's side of the fam. It was awesome to see aunts, uncles, cousins that I haven't seen in a while. 
The group:
 Annabelle got plenty of lovin'.  She loves her uncle Jordan.
 And Uncle Buddy captured her heart and she captured his!  It was so sweet. 

Today has been a catch up day on laundry and a couple projects around here that needed to get done.  I feel like the "nesting" stage has been very random.  Some days I will look around and care less about what the house looks like, then today I woke up and cleaned things that I haven't cleaned in probably over 6 months.  I've been organizing, and scrubbing what I can.  But, trying to actually KEEP things clean is almost impossible if you live with a two year old.  :)

I can't believe how close we are to meeting this little boy.  I for sure was convinced that I would NOT make it to August, much less to my actual due date.  That means, in the next 8 days, baby needs to make an appearance.  I feel no real signs of labor being close, so who knows.  My last doctor's appointment on Friday, I was 2 cm and still only 50% effaced.  Which I hear means almost nothing.  But, I am hopeful for a July baby, and will do my best to not be disappointed if he is later than I have expected.  God knows when he needs to come, and what is best for him.  I am nervous about him getting any bigger than he is right now.  My body hurts when he barely moves.  I'm still feeling very uncomfortable but it has gotten to a point where it just feels normal to always be this uncomfortable. 

Hoping THIS is the week!  ;)

7.18.2012

37 weeks!!!

I've been waiting for this marker.  37 weeks!  Baby boy is considered "full term".  Let's get this show on the road, shall we?!?  :)  Now that I know I only have a couple weeks, I think I can be a little more patient.  Cause it literally could be any day.

Baby Boy,

I've been praying for you since the day I found out I was pregnant.  I pray SO SO SO much for your health and development.  I pray for a very super duper special place in my heart and in your daddy's heart just for YOU.  I pray that you love your older sister and watch out for her and defend her.  She is going to ADORE you so much that it might make me jealous.  I pray you have a soft, sensitive spirit along with the natural "WILD HEART" that boys are built with.  More than anything, your daddy and I pray you will accept Jesus into your heart and into your whole life.  There is nothing more important than that.

There is so much more I want to say to you.  I just can not wait to meet you and see who you will be.  Please don't get too overwhelmed with the amount of kisses I will plant on your cheeks and your little nose!  Cause it's gonna happen, and it's gonna happen soon.

I love you,
Momma.



SO, I am craving FALL!  It didn't take to long for me to be so over summer.  I want me some fall.  Minnesota, I miss you enough as it is in the summer, and thinking of Fall makes me miss you even more.  I gotta get myself and my little family to Minnesota before it turns ugly.  ;)  For real, I miss summer and fall in MN.  I hate the long winter, and the dirty, dreery spring.  But, two out of the four seasons make up for that, a little.

I'm ready to put out my Fall Scentsy smells, bake just to make my house smell cozy, make crock pot meals, watch football, wear a sweater, go for jogs with my TWO kiddos, decorate the house in orange and black, pumpkins and gourds, take pictures in the pumpkin patch, hear the high school band practice in my back yard, go back to MOPS, Buddy Walk, etc.....
I'm looking forward to so much right now.
Check out THIS site with tons of front porch decorating ideas.  All for FALL!

Will update as baby gets closer to making his arrival.

7.16.2012

ok, ok.



This post may be a little more positive than the last.  I have been feeling SO much better!  I actually feel like a new person.  Being sick, AND pregnant really sucks.  Last week was so super hard, and it was difficult for me to find anything nice to say about it.  :/  Bleh!  I am glad it's over, and I am feeling "well" for the most part.  I guess.  I can breathe through my nose, and I have been able to sleep. In fact, there was apparently a storm on Saturday night and Craig and I both didn't wake up at all.  Awesome.  I went to a Beth Moore conference this weekend, and she spoke on being "cast down" and getting from there to "Ecstatic Joy!"  She said something about how your body can feel "Cast Down" while your soul still feels Ecstatic joy.  In my situation, though, my body has dragged my soul down with it, and it really really did last week.  But, I'm slowly getting back up, and trying to stay positive about the rest of this pregnancy.  The reality of how fast he will be here is sinking in and I want to enjoy it if I can.  I remember when I wasn't pregnant thinking that women who were, were so cute and so lucky.  I know I will envy the cute pregnant lady again someday, so I really do desire to embrace this super uncomfortable time of life. 

It's getting really crazy to me that this little boy will be here in about 3 weeks, maybe less.  Yesterday, Craig and I did some rearranging of the house and worked on a big project to start cleaning out our garage.  This whole "nesting" phase I hear about is rubbing off on him.  Either that or my list for him is just getting longer.  ;)  He was so sweet to move things around for me and help me with things that I can't, or shouldn't be doing.  He's a good teammate.

All of baby's clothes have been washed, and mostly sorted.  I realize I am up to my ears in onesies, so I guess he will live in them for the first couple months.  It's still super cute to hear Annabelle say her baby brother's name when we ask her to.  I am not sure that I will reveal that to you until he is here, but I will for sure be taking a video of her super cuteness.  :)

TO A BETTER WEEK!!!!  :)

7.12.2012

36

As much as I would love love love to write amazing, positive things to report to you, I can't.  :(  Well, maybe a little.  But, this has been a miserable week.  Totally miserable.  I hate being so negative.  I do my best to find positive in most situations, but I am for real miserable.

Annabelle came down with a fever the day after the 4th.  She was happy and playful, just a fever.  Once her fever broke a couple days later, she started to get a cough and runny nose. Poor girl.  Welp, she gave whatever she had to me.  Sweet gift.  J/K.  I have not slept well since maybe Sunday night.  I actually feel like I haven't slept in 4 days.  Last night was the worst of all, where I was up for almost 4 hours.  It's hard to sleep already because of this giant belly I'm carrying around.  Then add a SUPER disgusting summer cold, and you have misery.  I can not breathe, have ZERO appetite, and feel ginormous.

Want to hear more?  My inner thighs feel numb when I walk around.  I pee what seems like every 2 minutes.  I can not get comfortable sitting, standing or laying down.  Heartburn is so bad that I can feel it in my jaw and my ears feel like they are blowing fire.  I have no appetite, and when I do, I'm scared to eat much because it will just come back up in my throat.  As much as I love feeling this little boy move, I feel like he is bruising me from the inside out.  Much like Bella's vampire baby.  ;)  My hormones make me feel like a whacko sometimes.  Like maybe I shouldn't go in public so that I don't blow up at someone and regret it.  I often have to tell people around me not to take things personally that I do or say.  I really don't feel like myself.  I have a hard time doing simple things.  For example, putting underwear on.  For real.  When I take a shower, I feel like I spent my energy for that hour and maybe the hour following.  Coffee repulses me, but I am addicted to a very small amount of caffine in the morning, so I drink it.  I cry at silly things.  And it's hard to take care of some of Annabelle's needs, and it hurts my back so bad when I pick her up.  But, I love holding her and taking care of her, so I often ignore most of the discomforts.

I could probably go on.  But, that's my life right now.  I'm not loving every minute of pregnancy like some people do.  I'm not super woman, and would never claim to be. But,  I CAN'T do things, and I do hate admitting that.  I don't remember feeling like this at all when I was pregnant with Annabelle. 

Waaaaaa waaaaa waaaa.  I'll be done complaining for now.  I'll fill out that silly questionaire.


How far along? 36 weeks!  yesssssss!
Total weight gain: around 23 lbs.
Maternity clothes? sure.  I basically wear the same skirts over and over, which are not maternity.  And the same tank tops, which are also not maternity, just long. 
Stretch marks? no.  LOVING coconut oil.  For that, and I have been putting it around my eyes before bed and in the morning.  It has helped the "I have not been sleeping" look.
Sleep: I would love to sleep.  Please, Lord, let me sleep.
Best moment this week: Hanging out with my husband, and my sweetest ever daughter.  OH, and finding out that these Braxton Hicks have not been for nothing.  I found out today that I am 1cm dilated, and about 50% effaced.  SO glad there is some progress, although i know I could walk around this way for weeks.
Miss Anything? sleep, my body, breathing through my nose.  Actually, don't get me started on what I miss.
Movement:  lots
Food cravings: no.  no food seems the best choice.  :(
Anything making you queasy or sick: food most of the time. 
Gender:  boy
Labor Signs:
contractions.  dilated, and thinning!  :)
Symptoms: tons of symptoms.  i wanna be done.
Belly Button in or out?kinda out, but not all the way
Wedding rings on or off? on
Happy or Moody most of the time: this is a terrible week to ask. 
 Looking forward to: Going to the Beth Moore conference tomorrow night with my sisters!!  I pray it is a time of refreshment and encouragement. 



So sorry for the downer post.   God continues to use Annabelle to brighten my days, and my sweet husband. ;)

7.06.2012

Lately

I'm really wondering HOW there could possibly be any more room in my belly for this boy.  I'm incredibly anxious to meet him, and have him on the OUTSIDE. :)  We went for an ultrasound a few days ago, and according to their estimations, he is about 6lbs, 13oz.  Are you kidding?  He is already bigger than Annabelle was when she was born.  So is my whole body.  It's pretty exhausting.  The more time that passes, the more I am ok admitting that I am "over it".  But, I am doing my best to soak up the sweet moments, and every moment I can with just Annabelle.  Trying to think positive here.  Texas is HOT, this baby has no more room, and Annabelle is BUSY, which means momma is worn out.

Some pics....
My pregnant sister and me!  


35 weeks!

one of my faves from the 4th


watching fireworks!  Annabelle's reaction to fireworks totally made my year!  She was up way past her bedtime, and was falling asleep in her stroller before they started.  But, as soon as she saw the first one, she shot up and cheered, saying, "HORRAY!" It was so adorable.  It was one of those moments I wish I could never ever forget, and keep a video log in my brain somewhere.  Pictures were not turing out well, and one video was taken where all you hear is her cheers, but no picture.  So, hopefully I never forget her face.  It was so so cute. 

A baby shower we threw for my sister a couple weeks ago.  It was funky and colorful and Dr. Seuss like.  It was super fun.  :)

I think, just think, we are closer to a name for this little boy. I know I say that every time.  We have been asking Annabelle to say certain names, and most of them she doesn't even attempt.  (she really has no clear as day words yet, so this is a big deal) There is ONE name that she almost clearly says just about every time we ask her, or she says if we ask her what her baby brother's name is.  It's pretty cute.  So, maybe we will end up going with that.  I still think I need to meet him, but if Annabelle wants to name him, I might be ok with that.   ;)