10.04.2010
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just got baack from the dentist. got a bit of work done. my mouth is so sore and numb. i hate the dentist.:( so over it.
10.03.2010
Sunday, October 3
I love Sundays. For a while now, it has been Craig's only day off. SO, Annabelle and i soak it up! We both have such a love for him, and enjoy lots of time with him when we get it.
Today, we went on a little outing to run some errands. I always like having someone else with me when I have to run errands. It makes things a little bit easier with Punkin with me.
I went to get some blue and yellow ribbon to make some awareness ribbons for the month of October. My family will be wearing them (hopefully) every day this month. Blue and yellow are the colors for Down Syndrome Awareness. :) I also got some orange ribbon to make some Halloweeny bows AND to make some UT bows for one of our little friends, who's parents are big UT fans. :)
Yesterday was a busy day. market days was too busy for me and peanut, therefore I did not enjoy it like i thought i would. :( i feel bad about that, but its just the way it is i guess. There was a 'moment' yesterday. I was sitting on a bench slightly hidden from the mass crowd of people and shopping booths. I noticed a lady pushing what looked like a wheelchair thingy, (more like and adult stroller i guess). The sweet girl in the 'stroller' looked to be around 13-15 years old. She had down syndrome. I watched them(of course) trying not to make it obvious. The girl looked handicap and also like she had autism maybe. The woman walked over to me where I was sitting with one hand on Annabelle's stroller. She asked if she could sit next to me. Annabelle and the young girl were next to each other, looking at each other, while the woman and I were sitting to rest. I felt like it was a "God moment". I wanted to talk to the lady and ask her questions and really know what her daughter was all about. ( I am only assuming it was her daughter). I felt my throat start to close and tears well up behind my sunglasses, and I did not say anything. We sat there for plenty long enough for me to strike up a convo, but I didnt. I didnt know what to say, or how to say it. I wondered if she knew, or could tell that Annabelle also had Down Syndrome. ( I OFTEN wonder if strangers notice.) Anyways, she got up after a while and left. I felt like I let a moment pass. Maybe I did. Maybe God just allowed her to sit next to me so I could see that she still had a life. I got a little stressed out during the day, trying to maneuver the stroller through the crowd, and this woman is STILL doing that with a teenager. That thought frightens me. The "what if's". BUT, the Lord kept giving me hugs and letting me know that my future is IN HIS HANDS, and ITS GOOD. It is what is best for me and for Craig. Whatever it holds. The woman still had joy. She did not seem unhappy or stressed at all. I dont want to keep wondering what our future holds with having a child with special needs. I think the worry and anxiousness will just take away some joy. So, although i did not speak to the woman, the Lord still used the moment. Thank you, Jesus. :)
(whoa, the vulnerability in my honesty is too much! yikes.)
SOOOOO, I sold a few things at that sale. sold some bows, which now makes me know that people will actually buy my creations. yay!
Ok, im gonna go enjoy time with my little family. :) no football that either of us wanted to watch today, so we rented Date Night from Redbox. Will prob write more tomorrow! Thanks if you are reading!
Today, we went on a little outing to run some errands. I always like having someone else with me when I have to run errands. It makes things a little bit easier with Punkin with me.
I went to get some blue and yellow ribbon to make some awareness ribbons for the month of October. My family will be wearing them (hopefully) every day this month. Blue and yellow are the colors for Down Syndrome Awareness. :) I also got some orange ribbon to make some Halloweeny bows AND to make some UT bows for one of our little friends, who's parents are big UT fans. :)
Yesterday was a busy day. market days was too busy for me and peanut, therefore I did not enjoy it like i thought i would. :( i feel bad about that, but its just the way it is i guess. There was a 'moment' yesterday. I was sitting on a bench slightly hidden from the mass crowd of people and shopping booths. I noticed a lady pushing what looked like a wheelchair thingy, (more like and adult stroller i guess). The sweet girl in the 'stroller' looked to be around 13-15 years old. She had down syndrome. I watched them(of course) trying not to make it obvious. The girl looked handicap and also like she had autism maybe. The woman walked over to me where I was sitting with one hand on Annabelle's stroller. She asked if she could sit next to me. Annabelle and the young girl were next to each other, looking at each other, while the woman and I were sitting to rest. I felt like it was a "God moment". I wanted to talk to the lady and ask her questions and really know what her daughter was all about. ( I am only assuming it was her daughter). I felt my throat start to close and tears well up behind my sunglasses, and I did not say anything. We sat there for plenty long enough for me to strike up a convo, but I didnt. I didnt know what to say, or how to say it. I wondered if she knew, or could tell that Annabelle also had Down Syndrome. ( I OFTEN wonder if strangers notice.) Anyways, she got up after a while and left. I felt like I let a moment pass. Maybe I did. Maybe God just allowed her to sit next to me so I could see that she still had a life. I got a little stressed out during the day, trying to maneuver the stroller through the crowd, and this woman is STILL doing that with a teenager. That thought frightens me. The "what if's". BUT, the Lord kept giving me hugs and letting me know that my future is IN HIS HANDS, and ITS GOOD. It is what is best for me and for Craig. Whatever it holds. The woman still had joy. She did not seem unhappy or stressed at all. I dont want to keep wondering what our future holds with having a child with special needs. I think the worry and anxiousness will just take away some joy. So, although i did not speak to the woman, the Lord still used the moment. Thank you, Jesus. :)
(whoa, the vulnerability in my honesty is too much! yikes.)
SOOOOO, I sold a few things at that sale. sold some bows, which now makes me know that people will actually buy my creations. yay!
Ok, im gonna go enjoy time with my little family. :) no football that either of us wanted to watch today, so we rented Date Night from Redbox. Will prob write more tomorrow! Thanks if you are reading!
10.02.2010
october.2
i wanted to get this written while i have the chance today. im in the car (not driving) and its only 8:28 am and ive already been busy. i do like mornings. especially crisp october mornings. there has been a huge children/maternity consignment sale in gtown this week called Just Between Friends. its awesome. they only do it 2 times a year and i went last when i was pregnant. this time i decided to be a consignor and volunteer. i brought some things to sell but not sure if i sold anything yet. ANYWAY...super fun! today was half price day and it opened at 7. i had my eye on a Chicco umbrella stroller and a few other goodies so i woke up real early to stand in line and barge in when the doors opened. (up before the sun. banana,coffee and cash in hand. annabelle snuggled up next to me in my new Maya wrap.) I was goin staight for the stroller an so did another girl far ahead of me in line. :( i did not make it. sad. BUT i got a way cute little winter skirt and some snuggly winter pants for her. and a few infant toys and things. annabelle was a good sport to let me drag her along so early. it was fun. now im in the car on my way with Lisa and Mom to spend the day in Wimberly for market days. good saturday i'd say. the part of the sunrise i saw today was just gorgeous. so bright pink. i like morning. and starbucks pumpkin scones and coffee.
i want to try and say something about Down Syndrome every post this month. I am such a proud momma and my heart and life has changed so much since i heard Dr. Amy say those words..."I think Annabelle might have Down Syndrome." I would never take a single moment back or ever ask for things to be different. im so inlove. there is something i love about that distinct face u see in Down Syndrome and it melts my heart.
i want to try and say something about Down Syndrome every post this month. I am such a proud momma and my heart and life has changed so much since i heard Dr. Amy say those words..."I think Annabelle might have Down Syndrome." I would never take a single moment back or ever ask for things to be different. im so inlove. there is something i love about that distinct face u see in Down Syndrome and it melts my heart.
10.01.2010
October
October has always been one of my favorite months! I love it. the weather's nice, its Fall, there's football, Halloween, Pumpkins. and I secretly like the colors orange and black together. you cant wear them together any other month of the year to avoid looking too "Halloweeny"! but, now, October becomes my favorite month even more. It is Down Syndrome Awareness month! I dont know how I will help, but i want to. for my daughter and her future and for the lives of sweet kids and adults with DS.
there IS something called 31 for 21. 4th Annual 31 for 21 Blog Challenge. The goal is to post one post a day to raise awareness about Down syndrome. It doesn't necessarily have to involve DS, but at least to post every day. You dont have to know someone that has DS to raise awarness, but, if you read this blog, then you all DO know a sweet little someone. If ANYONE would like to do it as well, here is the button below you can click on it and it will take you the the site to get your own button for your blog.
Grab This Button
So, I guess you will be hearing from me for the next 31 days. Happy October!
there IS something called 31 for 21. 4th Annual 31 for 21 Blog Challenge. The goal is to post one post a day to raise awareness about Down syndrome. It doesn't necessarily have to involve DS, but at least to post every day. You dont have to know someone that has DS to raise awarness, but, if you read this blog, then you all DO know a sweet little someone. If ANYONE would like to do it as well, here is the button below you can click on it and it will take you the the site to get your own button for your blog.
Grab This Button
So, I guess you will be hearing from me for the next 31 days. Happy October!
9.27.2010
i watch football.
There have been a lot of thoughts running through my mind lately. I know there will be too many for me to write, but I will do my best....
I have been thinking a lot about relationships. Real Relationships. I have lately just been exhausted with things like texts and facebook and sometimes blogs even.(but blogs are usually deeper than a darn facebook status. ;) I am craving real voices, real laughs, facial expressions, real tears, a cup of good coffee or a cold beer. I have gotten really comfortable with not picking up the phone to call someone, and comfortable sitting in front of the computer to find out "what is on someone's mind". This is not to say I wont continue to do those things, but hopefully LESS. There are fears and insecurities I have with making or even continuing relationships. Not sure why, but I know that our generation has gotten to a point where these "digital relationships" are easy. But they are also fake, and often empty. Conversations had online or through text are often misinterpreted or, surface and empty. I want to pick up the phone. I want to build new friendships, and KNOW the friends that I do have. I dont want to miss out anymore. I am so tired of the surface. Lets talk. Lets meet up for coffee or martinis. CALL ME, too. ;) I mean, what did people do in the past before internet? I called a friend today and discussed this with her. She is mainly the one who got me to think about these things a couple months ago. she does not have facebook. she said she did, but then remembered the time in her life when she had no cell phone that would send texts, and only a primitive type of computer, unable to "connect" with people. She missed that because it forced face to face. (or ear to ear) I miss it too. yet, i guess here i am doing it. kind of.
same sort of subject, different perspective....I feel like we often miss out on a blessing. Relationships are so hard. NO matter what! There is NOT a perfect friendship/marriage/acquantance kind of relationship. I think we get scared of that imperfection and push people away. we get hurt, and put up a wall by deciding to "cut that person out of our life". I think that is kind of sad. I wish people would just communicate and at least TRY to work through hurts and issues. mild and deep issues. I wish i would do it. Its so hard. So we make it easier by avoiding. i dont know. just thoughts I have had lately. ( in these kind of cases, facebook is easier. just de-friend. yay internet. ;\
Thanks for letting me use some kind of online journal. ha. :)
SO...Annabelle is great. we had a follow up appointment today with a cardiologist. checking out the heart issue that Annabelle had when she was born. She is doing great. that is the report in a nutshell. :) we are thankful. I am so thankful to the Lord for protecting her little life and allowing her to grow and develop. I often sing this song to her...."He's got the whooole wooorrld in His hands. He's got the whooole woorld in His hands. He's got my sweet little Annabelle in His hands, He's got the whole world in His hands."
ps. im not saying the good ole FB is bad. i enjoy aspects of it..i.e.pictures and being in some kind of touch with certain people and things. well, i think get my point?
I have been thinking a lot about relationships. Real Relationships. I have lately just been exhausted with things like texts and facebook and sometimes blogs even.(but blogs are usually deeper than a darn facebook status. ;) I am craving real voices, real laughs, facial expressions, real tears, a cup of good coffee or a cold beer. I have gotten really comfortable with not picking up the phone to call someone, and comfortable sitting in front of the computer to find out "what is on someone's mind". This is not to say I wont continue to do those things, but hopefully LESS. There are fears and insecurities I have with making or even continuing relationships. Not sure why, but I know that our generation has gotten to a point where these "digital relationships" are easy. But they are also fake, and often empty. Conversations had online or through text are often misinterpreted or, surface and empty. I want to pick up the phone. I want to build new friendships, and KNOW the friends that I do have. I dont want to miss out anymore. I am so tired of the surface. Lets talk. Lets meet up for coffee or martinis. CALL ME, too. ;) I mean, what did people do in the past before internet? I called a friend today and discussed this with her. She is mainly the one who got me to think about these things a couple months ago. she does not have facebook. she said she did, but then remembered the time in her life when she had no cell phone that would send texts, and only a primitive type of computer, unable to "connect" with people. She missed that because it forced face to face. (or ear to ear) I miss it too. yet, i guess here i am doing it. kind of.
same sort of subject, different perspective....I feel like we often miss out on a blessing. Relationships are so hard. NO matter what! There is NOT a perfect friendship/marriage/acquantance kind of relationship. I think we get scared of that imperfection and push people away. we get hurt, and put up a wall by deciding to "cut that person out of our life". I think that is kind of sad. I wish people would just communicate and at least TRY to work through hurts and issues. mild and deep issues. I wish i would do it. Its so hard. So we make it easier by avoiding. i dont know. just thoughts I have had lately. ( in these kind of cases, facebook is easier. just de-friend. yay internet. ;\
Thanks for letting me use some kind of online journal. ha. :)
SO...Annabelle is great. we had a follow up appointment today with a cardiologist. checking out the heart issue that Annabelle had when she was born. She is doing great. that is the report in a nutshell. :) we are thankful. I am so thankful to the Lord for protecting her little life and allowing her to grow and develop. I often sing this song to her...."He's got the whooole wooorrld in His hands. He's got the whooole woorld in His hands. He's got my sweet little Annabelle in His hands, He's got the whole world in His hands."
ps. im not saying the good ole FB is bad. i enjoy aspects of it..i.e.pictures and being in some kind of touch with certain people and things. well, i think get my point?
9.23.2010
Inspired...
This girl's creativity inspires me. (click on 'girl' of course.)
Now off to a day of making and creating...
Dear Santa,
I would like a sewing machine for Christmas this year.
And lots of other stuff.
Now off to a day of making and creating...
Dear Santa,
I would like a sewing machine for Christmas this year.
And lots of other stuff.
9.20.2010
Proud...of myself.
I have been spending a lot of time making and creating. I have been searching online for different cutesy things, and then figuring out how to do it myself. I have made bows for hair, flowers for either hair, clothes or bags! Therefore, I am proud of myself. Please tell me if YOU or anyone you know would like to buy some. I am thinking about selling some. So, heres a few pics of the latest of the creations....
So, I know for some people this is way past the right time, but we finally allowed Annabelle to sleep in her crib for the night. I havent been in a rush to do it, cause i like her with us. But, she naps in her crib all the time, and does great. I knew she would do fine, it was me who was gonna loose some sleep. And i did. I woke up to every little noise and just had one of those nights where you just sleep really light. I couldnt wait to wake up and go grab her. But, i made it, therefore, am proud of myself.
I have another dentist appointment this afternoon. I am not as scared this time. Therefore, I am proud of myself.
Ok, this isnt supposed to be all about me. ;) Annabelle is doing great. I cant think of any new news since the last post. Im pretty sure she is the cutest thing i have ever seen. thats not new news. My mom, sister and I went to an estate sale of Saturday morning. It was a good one, so we were there a while. I didnt know we would be there so long, so my arm got super sore holding annabelle. she was so funny the whole time though. she was bouncy, and giggling and trying to play. there were so many people in this house. I think she thought it was a party, so she was social. it was cute! :)
I also enjoyed an awesome awesome morning at the park with her the other day. I didnt want to leave. I might be weird, but I love mornings. I love coffee, the dew on the grass, the fact that it is new and fresh, and you have the whole day to look forward to. I mean i like to sleep in every now and then, but i do cherish mornings. So, i packed her up and took her to the park, which is like right across the street. Its an amazing park. HUGE trees. ducks, a river, walking trails, swing sets, picnic tables, frisbee golf, you get the point. its big, and awesome and beautiful. I felt like i was in the movie Juno at one point, watching the High School cross country team sprint by us numerous times. The geese were little a-holes. excuse me, but they were. they are mean. the stick out their necks and squack and charge at people and the other duckies. boo. i did not like them. I thought annabelle would sleep. she did not. she soaked it all in just like I did. she loved it. she watched the ducks walk by, and enjoyed the quietness of nature. I read a little bit of my Bible, wrote in my journal, watched the old grey bearded man try to catch fish. At one point, a man was jogging by and a little girl with pigtails and her momma were walking the opposite direction, toward the jogging man. she tried to show him something as they crossed paths, and thought he would carry on a conversation with her. He giggled sweetly at her and kept jogging. Then she started to run off and said, "momma, look! I am running like a man!" it was cute. I think I will do that more often. refreshing. I would post pics, but they are on my phone, and i dont know how i would get them HERE.
i hear the punkin waking up from nap. gotta go....
So, I know for some people this is way past the right time, but we finally allowed Annabelle to sleep in her crib for the night. I havent been in a rush to do it, cause i like her with us. But, she naps in her crib all the time, and does great. I knew she would do fine, it was me who was gonna loose some sleep. And i did. I woke up to every little noise and just had one of those nights where you just sleep really light. I couldnt wait to wake up and go grab her. But, i made it, therefore, am proud of myself.
I have another dentist appointment this afternoon. I am not as scared this time. Therefore, I am proud of myself.
Ok, this isnt supposed to be all about me. ;) Annabelle is doing great. I cant think of any new news since the last post. Im pretty sure she is the cutest thing i have ever seen. thats not new news. My mom, sister and I went to an estate sale of Saturday morning. It was a good one, so we were there a while. I didnt know we would be there so long, so my arm got super sore holding annabelle. she was so funny the whole time though. she was bouncy, and giggling and trying to play. there were so many people in this house. I think she thought it was a party, so she was social. it was cute! :)
I also enjoyed an awesome awesome morning at the park with her the other day. I didnt want to leave. I might be weird, but I love mornings. I love coffee, the dew on the grass, the fact that it is new and fresh, and you have the whole day to look forward to. I mean i like to sleep in every now and then, but i do cherish mornings. So, i packed her up and took her to the park, which is like right across the street. Its an amazing park. HUGE trees. ducks, a river, walking trails, swing sets, picnic tables, frisbee golf, you get the point. its big, and awesome and beautiful. I felt like i was in the movie Juno at one point, watching the High School cross country team sprint by us numerous times. The geese were little a-holes. excuse me, but they were. they are mean. the stick out their necks and squack and charge at people and the other duckies. boo. i did not like them. I thought annabelle would sleep. she did not. she soaked it all in just like I did. she loved it. she watched the ducks walk by, and enjoyed the quietness of nature. I read a little bit of my Bible, wrote in my journal, watched the old grey bearded man try to catch fish. At one point, a man was jogging by and a little girl with pigtails and her momma were walking the opposite direction, toward the jogging man. she tried to show him something as they crossed paths, and thought he would carry on a conversation with her. He giggled sweetly at her and kept jogging. Then she started to run off and said, "momma, look! I am running like a man!" it was cute. I think I will do that more often. refreshing. I would post pics, but they are on my phone, and i dont know how i would get them HERE.
i hear the punkin waking up from nap. gotta go....
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