38 weeks

I just got back from my doctor's appointment for this week. So, everything is 'healthy' and good. I am a little bummed because I have made no progress since last week. I was really hoping for some dialation or something. I am wondering what all these contractions are actually doing now. I was hoping that this weekend or next week sometime we would meet this little one, but God knows what He is doing, and I guess it still could happen. I will try to not be impatient!! :)

Jealousy?

When it comes to "CHANGE" in my life, I have strange ways of dealing with it. I think I always have. I get so excited and anxious as the change approaches, and when it gets close, or I am in the middle of it, I sort of freak out a little. I know my emotions in these last DAYS before baby comes are bound to be sort of a roller coaster. I am beyond excited and anxious to meet my sweet Annabelle. This little girl I have carried and prayed for for 9+ months. BUT, the thought of holding her and her being REAL is sort of a shock at the same time. I have gone so long KNOWING she was there, and knowing she was coming. But, she really IS almost in my arms. I am not sure how to deal with the emotions I now feel. I am overwhelmed by them. I feel I have done all I can do to prepare, and to make her little world ready for her.

But, MY world doesnt "feel" ready. I am jealous of her in a way that I know her coming into our lives is going to drastically CHANGE our lives. Much of Craig's attention will be on this beautiful baby. I am thankful for that, but also really love that attention for ME! (I say that only sort of jokingly.) But, i do realize that the life that Craig and I have will not be the same. Making decisions will never be the same. I am thankful for the feelings I have right now, even though they are making me cry. I am thankful because I KNOW that my strength is not enough. The way we live will be altered, and our strength will HAVE to be drawn from Jesus. No one particulary likes to be out of control of their lives. I dont like it. BUT, if I didn't feel so out of control, then I wouldn't draw from the ONE who wants to lead me.

"Make me know Your ways, O LORD;
Teach me Your paths.
Lead me in Your truth and teach me,
For You are the God of my salvation;
For You I wait all the day."
Psalm 25:4-5

So, anyways, I am: anxious, excited, terrified, full of love, nervous, jealous, overwhelmed. I'm "ready" for this little Annabelle. I think.

I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow, and will find out if I have made any progress. I sure am hoping that there is some progress!!! I have been feeling good. Just pretty much the same. A little uncomfortable at times, but mostly good. I am going to go for a walk in the park today, and maybe every day to get this labor rollin!!! :)

My sweet Husband!

I have been so blessed with the sweetest man of all time! He is so wonderful ALL the time, but has been especially wonderful during my pregnancy. He is so understanding, supportive, and patient. Im thankful for his patience because I have done a little bit of whining and and my emotions are never predictable. :) He makes everything better. I really think I am so so lucky to have someone like him. I cant be thankful enough. And I can not express in words my love for him.
I dont want to embarass him, but, He was so adorable the other night, and painted my toenails. It has gotten hard and uncomfotable for me to find a way to do them myself, so he stepped in. It was pretty funny. They actually turned out quite nicely! :)
anyways, just wanted to give some well deserved attention to my man instead of me right now. He is so fantastic!!!

About 3 weeks to go! I cant even believe it! This "nesting" I have heard so much about has hit, and i dont think it is just because i have a new home to set up! I have a million things running through my mind that I want to get done. One being to clean the bird bath so that the kitties have some birdies to look at through the window, and wont feel left out when baby comes home. ha.

I have some pics to post of the nursery process! We finally set up the crib today, and I think it looks so adorable. OH, and this past weekend was a success in the baby shopping. There was a big consignment garage sale that took place at a church, and Craig was gracious enough to take me on Friday! We got her a jumperoo and some cozy little warm booties. Then, on saturday, they had a 1/2 off sale. So, i made it as early as I could so I could get some deals. Which was about 10:30 am! HA! I tried waking up when Craig left for work, but I couldnt make it. BUT, I still got some pretty sweet deals. A high chair for $10, which has wheels, and wheels were my main requirement when it came to a high chair. I also got an adorable car seat cover, a close and secure sleeper, and 2 fitted crib sheets! I was pretty proud of myself. I am ALL ABOUT this second hand baby stuff. They use things for such a short time, that it is so hard to spend full price on certain things. I still really want a baby swing, and need a stroller. I am going to be searching for great deals on Craig's List for a while! :)

CLOSET: OH the cuteness!!!

I worked on sorting clothes by size, and this was the mess:
Belly pics in my new kitchen!!


AND....The sweet sweet CRIB!! I love it!

New House!

Whew!!! The last few days have been quite busy! I am very thankful how the Lord worked out our move so smoothly! We are officially out of the old house, and into the new one. I like it so much so far. The space is a little tighter, which made me nervous, but it is working out quite nicely. Its just a little more cozy.

I tried not to push myself with this move, and had many eyes around to make me sit down when they knew I needed to! I have a hard time when I get an idea in my mind of something that needs to be done, and not doing it. Like this morning, I wanted to set up the guest room/office so bad, but in order to do that, boxes needed to be moved, and a bed put together. I just had to do it. I made sure i didn't strain or push myself too hard. But, I got reprimanded when Craig got home. ;) I will do my best to continue to "take it easy" with all these ideas of ways to set up the house running through my mind! Its so fun though!

So, we had a last and final ultrasound this morning! Annabelle is measuring GREAT, and looks healthy! That makes me so happy to hear. She is 5lbs 6oz. She is also not breech anymore which was a little bit of a relief. 4 more weeks! I can not wait to hold her. OH, and speaking of setting a new house up, i FINALLY get to unload all her things and make her room ready for her arrival!

Last week, my mom and my sister had Spring break since they both work for the school district. It was fun for me to pretend I was on "vacation" too since it was my first week away from work. We had a lot of fun together. Lisa snapped a few pictures of me while we were out....

Today, i begin my new career as a Stay at Home MOM!!! :) Im very very excited about it! I got to sleep in this morning, which I plan on doing as much as I possibly can before Annabelle comes. We are also supposed to be moving, possibly by the end of the week. So, this first week off will be busy! I have LOTS of packing and cleaning to do. I have been feeling a little uncomfortable lately, so,i really want to stay busy to keep my mind off of it. The past few days I have been nauseous and had a continuous headache. Im not sure if that is just what is normal around this time of pregnancy. I tried painting my toenails last night, which did end up being a success, but it was a little tough. ha.

Anyways, I am ready to get settled somewhere and finally set up this little girl's room!!! I will let you know how it all goes!

34 weeks

not too much to update on. things are still going well for the most part. baby has been super active the last few days. craig and i have been feeling distinct bumps on the outside of the belly, and we have fun trying to guess what it is. the head? bottom? foot? elbow? she is definitely getting bigger, and its a little uncomfortable at times that she doesn't have a whole lot of room to move like she wants to!! we are hoping that she is in "position" soon. my doctor said by 36 weeks they want to see her head down in the pelvic area. that's normal right? I'm not sure what position she is in today, but i think i have been feeling feetsies up by my ribs. :)

I have 3 days of work left!! wooooo hooooo. I'm pretty excited about that. My kids in my class have been SO sweet. some have brought in gifts for the baby. One i got today was a gift card for a website called: www.JanieandJack.com I had never heard of it before, but its pretty cute. i have a couple things picked out. I am SO appreciative to the parents that are thinking of me! so sweet. I will miss my kids, but am pretty excited to be with my own!